Out Of Mind And Loving It!
- Date: 2008-05-26 - Word Count: 568
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I was a died in the wool, analytical, left brainer, and I forgive myself.
It made me feel safe. I couldn't find the answers to all I was feeling, but damn I was safe. What more could I want? Well, as life and the picture I had painted, and the story that I had written as my life, began to unfold the answer to that question came. But, did I have the courage to walk uncharted territory and forge my own way?
The answer to the second question began to unfold when I got married at age 48, gave up a lucrative job with benefits, sold my house, said goodbye to my family, and headed west to live my dream. It all scared the @#$%! out of me. So I dusted off an old suitcase, a family heirloom, and threw all my mental and emotional "stuff" in. I put it into the U-Haul, right along with the furniture.
Out of family loyalty, of course, I kept that piece of luggage when I arrived in Montana. I looked through it daily in the first days and months in my new home. When I could no longer lug all the emotional "stuff" I had moved with, and had none of the old friends and family to reflect back to me the person I saw in their eyes as me, I began to look through the contents of my suitcase. Fear, fear, and yes, more fear was the predominant theme. It came in all shades and styles in my wardrobe. While still very frightened, I made a conscious choice to see what thoughts about myself still fit and what emotions I wore because others thought they looked good on me. Finally I began to discard family and societal patterns, releasing beliefs that I was taught were mine, handed down from generation to generation. Who was I to drop the family ball? All this shook me to my core and then was followed by an incredible sense of relief.
We all write our own story from the beliefs we carry with us in that voice inside of our heads. After stripping myself of everything I knew, the separation between my head and my heart revealed itself. As I tried harder and harder to build my dream with my mind at the helm, my dreams kept ahead of me. When one of my guiding Angels appeared in the form of a friend, I finally heard the message, "Go into your heart and listen."
That's when my heart became part of the team of Love and Light guiding me. I began to see that checking with and hearing my heart was getting me where I wanted to be. I found that God accepts me exactly as I am, motivating me to grow in trust and love for my Self.
It can be incredibly frightening to be out of your mind and in your heart. There is a huge attachment to identity, to conform to society's standards, and to follow blindly the voices that are other than Self. To lead with the heart, coming from a place of love for self and others, takes awareness and trust of Self. Despite the pressure, inside and out, to conform to the norm, I am now committed to taking responsibility for building my dream, day by day, thought by thought.
Who would have thought being "out of my mind" and committed could bring me such peace?
It made me feel safe. I couldn't find the answers to all I was feeling, but damn I was safe. What more could I want? Well, as life and the picture I had painted, and the story that I had written as my life, began to unfold the answer to that question came. But, did I have the courage to walk uncharted territory and forge my own way?
The answer to the second question began to unfold when I got married at age 48, gave up a lucrative job with benefits, sold my house, said goodbye to my family, and headed west to live my dream. It all scared the @#$%! out of me. So I dusted off an old suitcase, a family heirloom, and threw all my mental and emotional "stuff" in. I put it into the U-Haul, right along with the furniture.
Out of family loyalty, of course, I kept that piece of luggage when I arrived in Montana. I looked through it daily in the first days and months in my new home. When I could no longer lug all the emotional "stuff" I had moved with, and had none of the old friends and family to reflect back to me the person I saw in their eyes as me, I began to look through the contents of my suitcase. Fear, fear, and yes, more fear was the predominant theme. It came in all shades and styles in my wardrobe. While still very frightened, I made a conscious choice to see what thoughts about myself still fit and what emotions I wore because others thought they looked good on me. Finally I began to discard family and societal patterns, releasing beliefs that I was taught were mine, handed down from generation to generation. Who was I to drop the family ball? All this shook me to my core and then was followed by an incredible sense of relief.
We all write our own story from the beliefs we carry with us in that voice inside of our heads. After stripping myself of everything I knew, the separation between my head and my heart revealed itself. As I tried harder and harder to build my dream with my mind at the helm, my dreams kept ahead of me. When one of my guiding Angels appeared in the form of a friend, I finally heard the message, "Go into your heart and listen."
That's when my heart became part of the team of Love and Light guiding me. I began to see that checking with and hearing my heart was getting me where I wanted to be. I found that God accepts me exactly as I am, motivating me to grow in trust and love for my Self.
It can be incredibly frightening to be out of your mind and in your heart. There is a huge attachment to identity, to conform to society's standards, and to follow blindly the voices that are other than Self. To lead with the heart, coming from a place of love for self and others, takes awareness and trust of Self. Despite the pressure, inside and out, to conform to the norm, I am now committed to taking responsibility for building my dream, day by day, thought by thought.
Who would have thought being "out of my mind" and committed could bring me such peace?
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Karen Nowak is a Telepathic Healer/Communicator for animals and their human companions. She is a Master/ Teacher in Seichem, Reiki, and Shamballa Multidimensional Healing. Karen offers private sessions in healing and communication for animals and humans. She also teaches energy clinics for horse and rider. Karen can be reached at 406-326-2192, 406-321-2786, freedomreins@earthlink.net, and http://www.freedomreinsllc.com Your Article Search Directory : Find in Articles
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