The Healing Arts: Healer, Heal Thyself!

by Russ Reina - Date: 2007-01-02 - Word Count: 1144 Share This!

I'm particularly fond of this statement because I am a fine example of the exploration. Were you to spend time with me (probably barely longer than a day), you'd most likely be astounded at what a poor example I am of someone whom you'd hope to be a healer!

On my best days, my appearance is disheveled. I'm overweight, don't trim my nose hairs very often, have eyebrows that reach to Orion's Belt, have the styling consciousness of a microbe (I don't mean to be unfair to microbes), I walk with a "hitch", use the "F" word too much, am irreverent, if not blasphemous, eat what's there (often, everywhere!), have to force myself to brush my teeth, don't understand the concept of "exercise", at times embrace partying, and...well, you get the picture...for one who's role in life seems to be to help others to wellness, I'm a mess.

Luckily I'm a generalist and not a dentist. Were I a dentist, you'd go to a veterinarian!

Having lived my life with healers of all stripes, through an incredible array of modalities, I can attest to having witnessed the most exquisite acts of healing come through the most unworthy-appearing and acting individuals. In the shamanic traditions, it almost appears to be a badge of honor that the shaman has grovelled in the dirt as miserably, if not worse, than any of the people he/she heals. I've had it explained to me, "How else could I suggest something if I haven't experienced it myself -- to its fullest?"

Wrestling with one's own demons is something we've signed up for. Why do I say that? Look around you and show me the people who aren't? Look in the mirror. You think Mother Teresa was pristine?

I guess here's the point where I let everyone know, point-blank, that I do not embody the Light Worker, though that is absolutely what I do. The light I bring to the world has come from the deepest of darkness. Beginning with an excruciatingly painful childhood that echoed within me until I was about forty, I cut my teeth in the back of an ambulance where, over the course of twelve years, I got to see (and experience) most every shade there is of the drama of being human, both in myself and others. My life has been about overcoming that darkness, and it's all been an incremental process.

I live and work off of what I sometimes jokingly call "New Age Airy-Fairie" precepts, but I guarantee you, they are real and they are grounded in the concrete of harsh (and hugely illuminating) reality.

Whether we accept it or not, this duality thing is unavoidable. Sometimes, I act like a Saint, others, a Sinner. But when I'm in service to healing, I'm in service to healing. Period. And in that state, my job is to be a vehicle. The less I worry about directing the outcome, the more capable am I of seeing the result. Now that I think of it while refining this piece, many, many times I have no idea of how what comes through me does its work, all I can look at is the clarity of my intent.

As a healer, I do not know what part of me does the healing. My weaknesses in some people's eyes, have been the very things that have offered others hope. The only thing that makes me a healer is that I consciously seek opportunities to be a vehicle through which healing energy flows. That's a bit tricky, because I often see the opportunities and then I have to put my attention on "emptying" so that my actions are not based on what I think should be. What makes me a healer is that I work with what is in the moment.

In this moment, I'm telling you that no one is immune from the struggle of being human. To deny oneself of being a vehicle through which healing energy flows because you, or others, deem you unworthy or flawed is to deny the world of something it desperately needs -- YOU in all your miserable glory!

Sometimes, healing is slow and incomplete. Other times it is instantaneous. Each of us experiences healing at the rate at which he, she or it will allow it to happen. It doesn't matter if it's cancer or a scratch. It's true with me, it's true with you. We're all doing this dance.

There's not a healer I know who has not had to crawl into his or her cave and lick his or her wounds for a while. There is not a person on the face of the planet who hasn't found that life is ebb and flow, and that means sometimes the healing energy moves in torrents, others in a trickle. Sometimes you can't cure the pain unless you've known the pain. Sometimes, just being in the struggle yourself -- and failing -- is enough fuel to help the other person get over the hump.

Of course, this does not mean that you should subject yourself to any Quack who hangs out a shingle. Some people's self-destructiveness significantly clouds their ability to see what is in front of them and respond to it. But generally, in my opinion, you can tell when someone is truly in a "healing mode" when they are more curious than fixed, more open than closed, more willing to discover with, than determine for.

Now here's the amusing part (actually, it's ALL kind of amusing to me, I'm a bit on the Heyoka side!): I have been intimately involved with people at all levels of life who consciously take the stance of curmudgeon, doubter, denier, you know, the ones who throw water on the Birthday cake at every opportunity, and they are healers of the first order!

Because I'm tuned in, I can see how, by being fully themselves -- in all their twisted glory --they're offering others the fuel to build their strengths in contrast.. What's funny about it is, the healing energy that comes through them is clear as a bell, but they derive no benefit from it.

And that's my second point. In any moment we can choose to be a part of the miracle of healing or not. We can choose to experience it for ourselves, as we work with others, or divorce ourselves from it. The degree to which we choose to be a part of the healing energy we want to exhibit -- and believe me, this IS a choice! -- is the degree to which we, ourselves, experience healing.

If you threw all my dark and all my light in a blender, however, you'd pretty much get the same shade of gray as everyone else. Mine tends to be a bit more visible. You, like me, happen to be going through this world at your own pace. By accepting this, you are more likely to be able to meet every situation with compassion, therefore, healing everything.

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Russ Reina shares over 35 years of experience in the healing arts through his web site It is a potent resource for those wishing to deepen their abilities in connection and develop their powers as healers. For a powerful free tool to explore your inner world, please check out his adjunct site

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